I’ll be honest. I was scared to do this post. The fear has nothing to do with shame mind you, but other personal things. But here i am. Sorry for the quality of the pics, but i wasn’t the camera man at the time.
Yeah…I’m starting to feel old, and fat. I guess these pictures kind of reflect my mood at the moment. The bad thing about cold weather is it makes it harder to go for a walk and try to improve my health. Thankfully though a space heater in my computer room helps me drastically reduce how much heating gas i use, so my gas bill has been low this month so far.
As a nudist i sometimes i find myself asking, “Do i need to lose weight and get healthy for my sake or the sake of being nude. Being nude all the time you get used to your own body, but you also have to look at yourself and if you are lucky you don’t become judgmental of yourself to the point where you feel disgusted at your own looks. Some days i feel that way. Especially when it comes to my own nudism. When i mention that i sit at home all day in the nude to other blacks, i either get some restrained laughter, or judgmental looks from them, especially the older blacks. But i am well on my way to being that older black person. I’m 36 yrs old now. Maybe i need to find a life and a nudist retreat.
Either way i just stepped outside in the buff to toss out some food to the local stray cats and i can tell its only 60 degrees out. Maybe I’ll go for a walk and get out of this house for a bit.
I’ve always wanted to wonder around outside in the nude. I’ve managed to sneak outside a few times but never really enjoyed the moment. Most of the time i would site on the steps of my back door and smoke a cigarette. And yeah those steps are uncomfortable to sit on.
So yeah, this year was going to be the year. I was going to stand outside and get the job done this summer. At first the usual excuses started, but then something terrible happened. The tree in my back yard had to be totally cut down due to fears of the old dead thing falling on the house in a storm. A very large branch had hit the house more then a year ago and luckily cause no damage, but no chances could be taken this year and so it was cut down.
The old tree was the only thing that obstructed the view to my back doorstep. My back yard neighbor is a 80+ yr old woman who I’ve only met 3 times since I moved here years ago. And yet i am now paranoid that she’ll see me if i step outside in the nude, even if it’s 2 AM. And to be honest her back window is more the 30 yards away. *sigh* OK maybe one last try. I don’t even know any more.
When i saw this article on the All Nudist blog i was taken aback by it. The article, Single Male Nudists – Still a Problem made me wonder are people at naturist retreats and resorts still that prudish and backwards. Are the people there still that uptight and worried about single men. While i read the article and agree that there are men who are there to look at the ladies and try to get a date. I don’t think its a epidemic but the comments to the article almost seem to relate a feeling that many people think there is a epidemic of rude, crude, single males showing up at family nudist resorts. I also have to say this as a single male. If there are single ladies there then what is the problem?? As long as said single male isn’t harassing married women or any women in general i don’t see what’s wrong with trying to get a date.
Now as for me this article brought home something i don’t like to remember too well. Back when i was in my twenties i found the naturist retreat in Chesnee, SC, my home state. I was there for only 10 minutes and the owners, a white couple, were quite friendly and welcoming. While i was still clothed though i could feel the stares and disdain from the few whites that were there. While i am not racist, my daddy didn’t raise no fool either. I know that males generally in the age range of 40 to 60, which is the range for most nudists these days, are from the same generation as my dad. And what i was concerned about was a bunch of hostile, older white men, who were worried that i was some hung, black stallion that would woo their wives and daughters away with my ample crotch size.
For the record I’m somewhat below average from what I’ve seen of other black males, but you’d think no one would care about that now in 2012. That scenario still worries me though, and this article doesn’t help much in that regard. I’m even more wary now about going to a resort then ever before. Well i don’t have much else to say on the matter for now.
But the idea of creating a resort for single males sounds inviting i feel that its ultimately silly and makes men feel as if we’re nothing more then herded cattle who need to be contained lest our libidos make us wander.
I want to thank the blogger/twitter homeclothesfree for showing me this site: http://blacknaturist.tumblr.com/ At first i was shocked because i thought i had been outdone! But nope, it’s just pics. I will reblog some of the pics from time to time.
Over the years i have searched for artistic black nudes…they are very hard to find on the Net. Much of what i find appears more pornographic in style and ideal, then artistic. Now is there anything wrong with the nude black male being portrayed in a erotic fashion? No, there is not. But it feels to me that this is all we have. In this post i will show pictures of nude black males, and make some comments.
being nude is a casual thing. And yet i can tell you now that many blacks see it as a very serious thing. Forbidden and taboo.
But why? What is there to be afraid of?
Here we see a nude black male covering his ‘shame’. That’s the only way to describe it in my mind. Why else would you cover up your penis unless you’re ashamed of it. And what is there to be ashamed of? Or is it…
Fear? And yes i chose the biggest pic possible to illustrate the absurdity of it all! We can no longer claim white men will get upset by this sight. But i think many blacks feel ashamed or put off by the sight of a black male with a big penis. Our own fears of not measuring up, of women running in horror, being called a freak, or oversexed. It’s silly isn’t it?
Will this make some of us feel better? Less imposing isn’t he? Amazing when you think about though…
This guy went outside nude. And he’s probably got more guts then 85% of Black America, maybe even me, because this was a public place. And he sure ain’t the epitome of black beauty.
In the end the nude black male has a long way to go in my opinion. We have to get away from the sensual and pornographic….
To the artistic…
so we may be seen as beautiful and perhaps even divine,
and finally when we reach the point where our nudity is no longer shameful or secretive…
We shall see our black nudity as mundane, everyday, perhaps even a little boring…
that is when we really will feel at home in our own skin, and be happy with ourselves…
But until then we shall remain asleep and in shadow…but none the less handsome and beautiful…
Black is beautiful. No matter the gender…